” Is There Anything to Hard for God”

Is there anything to hard for God !! As I continue in the stand for my marriage I often ask this question. My answer is always NO!

Now my testimony about how God answered my question over and over again. On Sunday 10/7 my pastor preached about ” Overcoming Obstacles” in his message he preached about the story of Abraham & Sara and revealed how God told Abraham he would father a child with Sara at the age of 99. Well of course Abraham fathered not only one child but several more after the age of 99. (Impossible in man’s power) but not our God. Later in the week I participated in a marriage prayer call. On Saturday 10/13 the pastor again spoke about Abraham & Sara and how God made the impossible, possible in their ripe old age. The pastor ended the prayer call by saying ” I pray you all go to church tomorrow and get not information,  but confirmation”. On Sunday I was going to a church that I have visited several times before but hadn’t particularly grown to love.  But I went anyway well when God has something for you; you can believe that He will deliver. The word spoken from the pastor was again confirmation of the answer I had heard all week. “Nothing is impossible with God”. As the pastor stood and announced his subject ” Is there anything to hard for God” tears suddenly started streaming from my eyes and not only was the subject the same; so was the topic and the scripture. I left church truly confirmed that God is moving mountains. And as the biggest blessing of this confirming moment On Monday I received a card in the mail from a friend. She has being sending the card since July. However for some reason she picked just the right time and the card was delivered on just the right day. All day I felt good and positive until going to the grocery store and realizing that I would be cooking for just me once again. My heart-felt hurt and I cried all the way home from the grocery store. I had decided that I wasn’t cooking I was just going to bed for the night. I got my mail before going to the grocery store and I saw the card but was not really in a hurry to open the envelope. I already knew she had sent me a Starbucks card so I just figured I would open it later. But my spirit was led to open the card once settled in bed and already in my ” woe is me” mood. As I opened the card my heart was overflowed with God’s love,  yes the Starbucks card was there however the card read ” Nothing is Impossible with God”…. God was speaking to my hurt heart again. There is nobody that can make me believe that God is not real, loving and an awesome heart regulator. Only God  knew that just at that moment I needed another confirmation of His love and mercy for me his hurting daughter. God is awesome !!!

Then the LORD said to Abraham, “Why did Sarah laugh and say, ‘Will I really have a child, now that I am old?’ Is anything too hard for the LORD? Genesis 18:13


“River in the Desert”

Wow !! Is has been a while since I posted so much has happened but I’m still standing on Gods promises. Since I last posted I have been without a car, almost homeless but God restored it all. As I get to know God in a more personal relationship I realize that His desires are truly for my good. And when His plan is to remove all other idols so you can see Him as your shelter and strong tower its happens. When my car started acting up I reached out to my prodigal spouse for help, not financial but advice on what to do about the vehicle. He offered to help in any way he could so I asked him to assist me with locating another car. The communication went silent no response at all. So I prayed God provided a way and I walked in it. Then the move came upon me I had ninety days to locate a place, pack up an entire house and move. Because I was overwhelmed and unfamiliar with the location. I reached out in dire need explaining the car was still not working that it was impossible to locate a place without transportation. Again God has to remind me that he is my provider, my husband, my best friend and my provider to just leave it to Him, trust Him. Well I was at the wire for my move I had located several places but they were either not avail by my move date or just not the right place. So I scheduled my movers, packed my house, researched a storage unit and a hotel to stay in and went on family vacation on Monday with the move scheduled for Saturday and no lease or place identified. My prayers were my weapon….. On Wednesday I spoke with a housing agent about desired location and she suggested I choose another area, On Thursday morning I changed my location and starting my search the first place I located, I spoke with the owner and he referred me to the application process. I completed the application he called and asked me was I planning to move on Saturday. And asked if I would like to see the place on Friday. Remember I’m on family vacation and wasn’t returning home until Friday so I said yes. Thanking God for the place being located. So we met to see the place I was very skeptical and almost allowed the enemy to steal my blessing. The place was in an area I was not familiar with and didn’t immediately feel safe. But God knows His daughter. The landlord had only showed the place to me and he walked around and explained the neighborhood and all on the extra amenities. I signed the lease Saturday morning and moved in on Saturday afternoon. I love…love…love my new place great location and quiet environment. God said He would make a river in the desert, my river was made and I’m truly blessed. Rent was a little higher but God provides everything I need. And the car solution was settled after three months of renting cars off and on my father-in-law brought my other car home. A car that had been sitting for almost three years God is good !! I may not embrace everyday of this walk with a smile on my face but I know God is working on my behalf. Faithful is our God. 

” The King Is Moving”

It’s been a while again since I blogged just because I felt God had forgotten me. I know that God hears all on my prayers, sees all of my tears and knows my heart desire. I have actually stopped even discussing my marriage with people because I’m starting to realize they’re tired. Which reminds me that sometimes God places you in a place that only He can heal or comfort you. I have found myself in this place realizing that no matter how many prayers my friends pray with me if God is not ready nothing will happen. Today as I listened to my pastor this morning he reminded the church of the blessings being held up by the angels fighting. He spoke about Daniel praying with his face to the ground continuously with no answer. I have found myself in this same place praying, fasting and believing that God will restore my marriage. Yes I could just give up and move on as people have suggested. But in my heart I believe I’m standing where God wants me to be. I see God using me as a vessel for other women that want to just give up and give in. In my storm I continue to help others and speak on marriage and God’s love of marriage. And I know the victory belongs to Jesus and all the glory belongs to God. So if you find yourself in spiritual warfare just stand steadfast and unmovable and know that ” The king is moving” The devil may have lied and said “checkmate” but ” The King has the last move”. Be encouraged and keep believing ” Jesus will work it out” 

This Christmas

I will start this post with saying I thank God for ” This Christmas” because I lived and made it to another Christmas without losing my mind. I prayed and continued to pray that God would send my husband home for Christmas. I was so convinced that it would happen I prepared his gifts and stocking, then I picked up some of his favorite items from the grocery store and I prayed for a miracle….

The miracle didn’t manifest on earth so I began to believe that God had forgotten about little old me. The wife that has been praying and standing believing that ” His word will never return void”. I know I didn’t get to spend Christmas with my husband but I enjoyed family time and thanked God for his blessings that I didn’t spend the day alone.

So I’m still praying and believing. If you’re following my post by now you may be wondering why doesn’t she just let go. Yes I’m tired, yes I want to let go and yes I’m ready to move forward in my life. But when God says ” Be still” you must be still. So I’m still and praying for my harvest !!

” Be still and know that I am God” Psalms 46:10

Be still can mean many things while you’re in a storm. Sometimes it can mean just being quiet, calm and content in the moment you’re in. So I will remain still because only when I’m still will I hear God’s voice….

God has not forgotten

Good morning, As I post this morning I’m overjoyed and my heart is overflowing from God’s grace. I haven’t blogged in a few days because I again lost focus on what God wants me to see and know about him. God had to remind me through scripture reading that He is my husband, and that He was my husband since youth, in widowhood and even through rejection. That God alone has and will always be my husband. And that he will reconcile my earthly marriage but I must first acknowledge and be thankful for Him as my first husband !! Wow…. When I read this scripture I was confused and of course reached out for confirmation through my spiritual prayer partner and through my own prayers.

This week has been a week of rejoicing singing, thanking God and praising him for the blessings He has in store for me. Each day I have chosen to Thank God for something new that I have petitioned him for but not yet seen with my own eyes. Today I woke with an ” And Suddenly” thanks on my list. 

My scripture reading this morning has placed me in high gear confirming that God is faithful and His word will never return void. It began with :

My Question to God :

“How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart ? How long will my enemy triumph over me”? Psalm 13: 1-2

God’s Answer: 

” Look at the nations and watch– and be utterly amazed For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told.” Habakkuk 1: 5

Wow God just showed up this morning and showed out through his word my question and answer right there together !!!! Amen 

So No, I have not and will not stop trusting God for my overflow, my And Suddenly, my But God moment ! I know it’s coming and I’m ending this blog with trusting God to restore my household to one union in this year of 2017. And allowing 2018 to be a new beginning for my marriage that He God has truly ordained and blessed despite the enemy coming in like a thief in the night. So I will end this blog today with praise and thanks knowing its already done.

” For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay”.

Habakkuk 2: 2-3

God continues to say “Yes”

Many times doing this journey God has spoken to me through scripture, songs and devotionals. Never ever underestimate or allow anyone to make you question the way God speaks to you. We are all crafted in God’s image and He alone knows what it takes to reveal his plan to each and every one of us. I have had friends on this journey ask ” are you sure, you’re not making God’s scripture fit what you want to hear. Maybe He’s not saying that or to be exact ” sometimes you want something so bad that you make every song, scripture or devotional speak that thing into existence in your mind. Well my answer to those statements has always been ” God knows what I need and how to reveal Himself and His word to me.

Well today marks another long period of praying, waiting and asking God for revelation. And I must say He has given me just what I asked for. In the beginning of this storm or season in my life; I had a collection of scriptures I read daily. I didn’t clearly understand why or how my eyes found those exact scriptures. I didn’t realize that as the journey continued that God would use those very scriptures to give me confirmation. I prayed over these scriptures at least twice daily. I would enter my prayer room each morning and read these scriptures and I ended each night reading the same scriptures. Then I decided that I know longer needed to read or prayer over these anymore. In my mind they were not helping anyway. Wow !! God will reveal. Well those same scriptures have come back to me several times in the last two weeks in various devotionals or daily bible reading. God was speaking and letting me know I still say yes!! These scriptures were your light and revelation but the time for that vision had not yet come. God still had some unfinished work to perfect in me. I’m so thankful that when my heart said “No”; God’s yes was still somewhere deep down waiting to be revealed.

One of the scripture revelations and small miracles I saw with my eyes was in the prayer for my husband I posted in my last blog. The scripture used for that prayer was first revealed to me 11/2016 I actually carried that scripture in my pocket as I was wheeled away for surgery. I was praying for God to speak now and that all delays would be no more. However God was saying wait. I posted that prayer two weeks prior on my blog site and chose 12/7 as the day to be actually posted. On Friday 12/8 I received my daily devotional and the scripture was the same scripture I had used in my prayer on 12/7. The significance is what the scripture says: ”  For I am the Lord: I will speak and the word that I shall speak shall come to pass; it shall be no more  prolonged  for in your days, O rebellious house will I say the word, and will perform it saith the Lord” Ezekiel 12:25. I saw this scripture Friday morning and in my heart I knew God had spoken and He was turning things around. This would not be the only scripture confirmation I receive; every morning I was given a new revelation and miracle as God continues to remind me that ” He has not forgotten”.

Today I continue to stand firm on God’s word and promises knowing that the “Promise is still good” I may not physically see it with my eyes but I trust and believe God is getting ready to blow my mind and I’m ready !! 

If there is ever anything you are trusting and believing God for hold fast to His promises don’t be moved by friends and what they think always hold steadfast to God’s unchanging hand. God is faithful to do just what He said !!

” Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah 43 18-19 

Yesterday’s devotional confirmation ” No weapon formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that rises against you in judgement, thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord” Isaiah 54:17

God’s Yes is still yes !!!

My marriage prayer

For I am the Lord, I will speak and the word that I shall speak shall come to pass. It shall be no more prolonged for in your days, O rebellious house, will I say the word, and will perform it saith the Lord God. Ezekiel 12: 17-23

My prayer is that my will is aligned with God’s will and that he will speak the word to my husband today, regarding our marriage. I pray that God will speak so firmly/loudly and with authority. That the authority in Gods voice will have my husband pleading for forgiveness and guidance from God. I’m trusting and believing that God will turn his heart and give him an undivided heart today. And that every where he looks or turns in his apartment he see’s me and hears me. I pray his memory is attuned to the happy memories of our marriage. I also pray that God overflows his heart with the love that he thought was no longer possible. I know God’s ways are higher and his thoughts are deeper; so I trust that what I imagine is only the tip of the iceberg !!